Day 2. Day of thoughts

So, yesterday was the 3d (and 2nd official day).
And I cooked Ratatoulle (for the 1st time in my life) - but it was my own version - without zuccihni but with potatoes. I'll publish a pecipe soon here - sibylbakery.blogspot.com - in several days.

For dinner I had a yogurt and an orange. smth wrong was with recipe of pear-lemon pie...And I am really upset about it - it was liquid despite I baked it almost for 2 hours. So...

and even if no one read me I try to express my thoughts in english. Some kind of practice.

and yeaterday (the day I talk about) I realise one thing.

If I refuse of meat and fish - I could not realise some of my dreams.

1. to taste a cuisine of different countries.

2. to eat a red caviar from 3 litres jar with a big spoon when I become very rich.

3. and never eat my favourite dishes, every one of each is from meat. like an aspic, or stuffed pepper in tomato sauce or okroshka.

4. and I will have a serious medical supervision soon, so I am worry if it will influence on my health somehow. I am sure it should be even better, but such a sharp refusal of meat...

My father asked me: How much days you will be a vegetarian?

Days? sounds funny.

You are vegetarian or you are not vegetarian.  

I feel strange. Sometimes I doubt. Why. Why now. Why I just decide and do it without a strong motivation and reason... But I did not eat meat. My family did. 

And yesterday I feel not like I had not eat meat for 3 days but like I have not eat at all for 3 days. Strange. I know it is because I think to much about it.Self-hypnosis. I do not want to eat meat for now, but when I think about the whole my life... I start to doubt in my decision. No one force me. I know. I do not owe something to someone. I can decide like I want. Do not refuse of fish. Or. For example eat meat in special occasions or eat meat at the weekends and do not eat from monday to friday, it will helps animals somehow, but this way I could not to call me a vegetarian. 

so. for now. continue.